Ignorance or Apathy...

03/25/2011

Suffice it to say I am not a bright guy.  I acknowledge this without regret; I am what I am.

My former wife used to tell me I was “wishy-washy” when I wouldn’t take a stand on a given subject.  I always told her it was because I wasn’t interested in the subject and had no opinion of it.  As the quintessential under-achiever that I was for most of my adult life, few things truly inspired me enough to have an opinion or to take a position.  Frankly, I just didn’t care.

I can remember guys getting into fist fights in school because someone said something about girlfriend or a family member or some other innocuous verbal assault, and I suppose to defend his honor, one punched the other and all hell broke loose.  The thought never crossed my mind to fight over anything, especially some stupid comment meant to provoke me.  I didn’t get provoked that easily, and, besides that, I was too lazy to indulge the urge and I might have gotten hurt.  I don’t do well with pain, and realized early in my life it was easier to quit than to fight. 

About the only thing I ever took an interest in when I was growing up were girls.  I had a thing for pulchritudinous females, for that matter, I still do.  I suppose it was more than natural in an aspiring post-prepubescent male, but again living up to my under achieving qualities, I decided to chase just one.

My mother, God rest her soul, didn’t understand my lack of eagerness regarding anything.  She once said to me, “David, I cannot for the life of me figure you out, I don’t know if it’s ‘ignorance or apathy?’” To which I simply replied, “Mother, I don’t know and I don’t care.”

And that is all I have to say about that…