Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Pregnancy: How Cool is That...

07/22/2008

I am in Louisville, Kentucky, actually across the river in Jeffersonville, Indiana, but who’s counting steps.  I sat at a bar tonight at the Buckhead, a Jeffersonville beer joint, drinking brews and wishing I were at home with The Nancy.  I happened to notice one of the servers was very pregnant, and to my utter surprise, I was jealous.  What the hell is up with that?  I am a sixty-four year-old man.  I was stunned!!!  All of this began me to think, and God knows I am known to do some crazy shit when I think.  Jealous, me jealous, just the thought of an un-Spock like emotion such as jealousy makes me nuts, but nonetheless, I was felt it.

Can you think of anything more God-like than to be a mother?  God is mother of the earth and of all things on it and around it forever and ever, amen!!  I am in awe of pregnant women and of just plain women, for that matter.  Just think of it, women are able to give life.  Sure, we guys play a part, but for women it is so different, they grow life, we (guys) merely contribute to process it in a moment of lust.  It is our true purpose for being here, to procreate.  It is our only job.

I get tears in my eyes thinking what it must be like to have a life growing inside of one’s body and then one day getting to experience the ultimate beauty of giving birth.  Does this make me a pussy – so to speak?  I don’t think it does.  Having read “Conversations with God,” one day even I may get to experience it, or perhaps I already have.  Read the book and you will understand.

The Nancy says I am not your typical man.  I think I am.  Perhaps I just am a little more vulnerable than others, but I know I would like to experience the beauty of carrying a child and bringing in to this world.  I suppose a little of this vulnerability comes with the four beers I had while I watched the pregnant server at Buckhead’s, but whether this is true or not, I am still in awe of the process.

And that is all I have to say about that…