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Monday, December 31, 2012

Reflections on 2012

12/31/2012

Here we are at the last day of another year, and in the balance of things, a pretty good year.  As with most years 2012 had its tragedies and its high points, its eccentricities and its weirdness, but as with most the good far and away outweighed the bad. 

2012 was my first full calendar year as a retired senior citizen living on a fixed income.  I have had mixed emotions about my retirement; some days I wish I had held on another year, but most are spent with satisfaction at the decision I made.  I am very much a happy dude.

I suppose the low points for me were at the death of my sister Barbara in February after a lengthy illness and just this past month with the school shootings in Connecticut.  These put a damper on my “The Best Day Ever” spirit, but not for long.  Neal Donald Walsch’s “Conversations with God” has helped me so much with understanding why bad things happen to good people, though sometimes it is still tough to accept.

I have no complaints.  My life is good.  I have a great wife, great kids and wonderful grandchildren, and, I think, the proper attitude toward all things.  I get frustrated once and a while, most of the time with myself for allowing the frustration to creep in, and I only allow myself a few minutes to ruminate and be angry.  You see, a few years back I accepted that I am fully responsible for what happens to me in my life.  It just makes it all so much easier to blame myself for my circumstance and not others.

So tomorrow we begin another year.  I am looking forward to 2013 and all that comes with it.  I am not in control and, yet, I am in control.  I am the source of who and what I am, and I get to decide.  I get to create my day and my week and my year, and that, my friends, is all I have to say about that…

Happy New Year!