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Saturday, June 01, 2013

The End of Days…

06/01/2013

In cosmic time the length of one’s life on this planet is extremely short, so short, in fact, it probably doesn’t register more than a mere tick on big clock, especially when considering the universe is estimated to be 15-billion years old.  Still, it is very tough to watch someone who is dearly loved move from a lucid state to near comatose one.  This past Tuesday The Nancy’s mother suffered a stroke, and it appears her End of Days is in sight. 

The Nancy and I and the rest of her family, all recognize her mother’s quality of life has hit rock bottom.  She is barely consuming enough to keep a small cat alive or taking in a sufficient amount of liquids.  Her doctor has recommended reducing the number of medications she receives, and giving her only those to make her final moments as comfortable possible.  It is a sad day for us, but for her, a lover of all things God, these might be the best days of her life – for her these may constitute the Best Days Ever as she looks to the Beyond.

I have a different view of death than many; I have no fear of dying.  This poor woman has been battling myeloma and diabetes for many, many years, and it appears with the advent of the stroke they will finally win out.  When we saw her Memorial Day weekend it was evident something wasn’t right.  This past Sunday something compelled me to sit down with her and tell her how much she means to me and to express my love for her.  I have known her for twenty years and never felt the need to express my feelings for her before.  I am so happy I did it.  This woman is the closest thing I have had to a mother since losing my own in 1997.

The world will go on just about the same without Kate Warder, it will hardly miss a tick, but her passing will create an emptiness, a vacuum.  This sometimes grouchy old woman with a heart of gold, a beautiful smile and a hardy laugh, and a million friends, will be sorely missed, and very much so by a guy, this guy, who loves her so very much.

And that is all I have to say about that…