Friday, July 22, 2011

Wavering at 193 Days

07/22/2011

I originally set my retirement date to February 9, 2010.  Then in July of 2010 I changed my mind, making my boss happy and me wondering if it were the wisest thing to do.  I have heretofore laid out all the reasons why I should retire, but then I did the same in 2010.  My new date of January 31, 2012 was set in stone, or was it paper-mâché?  I am at the wavering point once again, seriously wavering.

A decision will have to be made soon.  I cannot put the company through this vacillation on my part much longer.  I have to decide.  If I stay until January 31, 2013 I will have passed my 30th anniversary with the company.  Not sure that’s a reason to stay, but the money sure as hell is.  I am not under paid.

Conundrum!  I really have to give this some serious thought and let my company know my definite intention.  The problem is I don’t know what my intention is; I am afraid to retire, and scared to stay on.  Wow!  Who ever thought life could be so complicated?

Seems to me people have names for a guy like me - wimp, coward, pussy, blah, blah, blah.

And that is all I have to say about that…